modern_nature1

the week from hell

2005-12-11T16:02:44Z

wow... you know i'm fucking insane when I put my alarm to 3:16 AM. well I ended up waking up at four. but still that's fucking fucking insane. i have so much work it's ridiculous. but i ended up falling asleep till 6:30 AM. UGH... i have like two and half pages of my essay done. and no history studying in and a concert. where the fuck did my three-day weekend go?!!?!?!?

monday: history test and gov school recording
tuesday: english paper
wednesday: physics test and english test
thursday: math test
friday: history quiz/quest

the first three days will be hellllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllll. ugh...

modern_nature1 @ 2005-10-29T22:12:00

2005-10-30T02:28:49Z

Hmm... I haven't posted in a while. but then again I say that even when I post frequently. Well, I'm here just to tell everyone how useless I am. Today was a waste of life basically. Except the weather was beautiful. It was dark and dreary in the morning and absolutely spectacular later on in the day. I love fall. It's my favorite season, hands down. hehe... I say that like the choosing of a favorite season is a dramatic and divisive decision. Well, perhaps it is since it deems you a Romantic or a Classicist, according to this test we took in English. It's kind of absurd because I put down fall as my favorite season and suddenly I'm a Romantic. Well, I suppose I'm a Romantic. But I'm a Classicist, too. Whenever I'm feeling rational, that is. But then all my u(insert umlaut)berliberal friends decry my sense of morality. (ahem...my cty friends) whom I love dearly... is that right? whom? meh. I've ceased to care. Actually, I haven't as I am saying that in order to dismiss my utter lack of grammar knowledge. i try, though.

Meh... So these Korean immigrants came over for breakfast. So I had to get up a bit earlier than usual to clean up the mess that is my room. Which always makes me feel better since it's a tangible goal, unlike anything that I try to accomplish nowadays. I can reap the benefits of my accomplishments right then and there. I think i've become such a failure that my only joys in life are domestic ones. Along the same vein, I've also gotten really into cooking. Isn't that strange? I mean I try not to overanalyze my love of cooking since I just love eating good, tasty food. But... it's really something I enjoy. Because, like cleaning, I can feel (or in this case taste) my achievement.

Then... I did some studying, which was moderately successful. Afterwards, I came home from the library and loafed around, attempting to finish my walden journal, which unfortunately, i am still working on. ugghh... if only i were a productive person...ever. meh... all i do lately is eat. maybe i should be a more useful person. maybe.

mm... instead i saw That 70s Show. it's always sort of amusing, not funny, though. The sketches are always so forced that it makes you kind of laugh and scoff.

then i made and ate some kimchi which my bowels will suffer for later tonight.

mm... then i read the economist. i feel guilty for skipping over the economics portions. i'm actually reading it backwards this time. i feel like i get through it faster, quenching my need for speed. not really. but that's kind of what my thoreau journal is about. hmm... i should probably do that.

on a last note, wilco is the most fucktastingist band. and physics is gradually killing my morale and my grade point average. but...no time to sulk. it is, after all, junior effing year.

yo, punk

2005-10-14T02:59:48Z

i haven't updated in so long.... wooooowww... so i had psats yesterday. today was really relaxing. i didn't do a lot of homework. then hung out in millburn and went to the library... read some Atlantic and The Nation . anyways, it was amusing b/c i saw stephanie chung there. crazy. i haven't seen her in a long time. we knew each other in elementary school. meh... that was interesting. then i went to ginger taste which is an awful excuse for a restaurant. i really like ellipses don't i? hmm.... they help me with my train of thought, i think. yeah i should go read some walden. speaking of books... i haven't finished turgenev, which is pissing me off cuz now i dont' even know who's like odinstava or shit they're all the same.... blahblahokov or like mehmehmehkonov or wahwahya. gosh.

updating? what?

2005-05-13T22:27:00Z

hello folks. yeah. so i'm updating. i've kinda stopped the whole... computer thing. i hate it. it's the source of my lethargy and drains out my time, life, energy, and eyesight. it's strange that i haven't done any exercise in forever. but i still lose 5 pounds. it's because i was sick with strep. and did not know and my throat was literally a centimeter wide and i had to stuff an inch wide piece of food down my throat. do you know how that feels? well.... chem test. final one of the year. basically. i am soo happy the year is ending, but i feel like my grades are not what i want them to be. so it's like meh! year! don't end! please! just so i can get my grades up. but it's okaaaaaay i'll go to rutgers. which is cool. but i've been thinking. maybe wellesley would be cool. be all ra ra shishkoomba feminist and stuff. that would be interesting. mostly because hillary clinton went there. and ppl who hate her. GO TO HELL. i love her :)

hmm... yeah i'm feeling very strep-ish. if you get my drift. and i'm not going to spring fling b/c of it. which stinks b/c i actually wanted to DO something on a friday night. rather than being the loser that i am. on the computer. doing nothing. i'm actually DYING to see my mother. b/c basically she's become my homie to the max. it's weird that my rebellious teenage ways have reverted back to infantile mother-loving... if i can say that. oh man i was thinking about using the word "segue"... which i originally learned in the context of music but i hated that emily chertoff pronounced it "SEH-GYU" it's "SEH-GWAY." Just because her dad's the homeland security advisor doesn't mean that she has the right to butcher italian and english. haha. i'm only kidding. she's a cool yet very headstrong girl.... which is alright i guess. but is annoying to someone like me who's like a headstrong whore. (wants to be all assertive but isn't so much in reality) but i guess my shyness problem... has gotten better since i force myself to be more outspoken. lalaaa i don't know why but this is the happiest i've felt in the past month!

bye! CARPE DIEM! RA RA RA i <3 peter from heidi chronicles. he's gay which sucks or otherwise he'd be my dream husband. :( pooh. ~i'll settle for a bi guy. if he's not like a weird bondage type kid~

--hopelessly searching--
catc

hahahah... so very melodramatic

i love how i continue to comment on a comment on a comment.

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btw. broken social scene is awesome. and badly drawn boy. my new obsessions. ;)

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modern_nature1 @ 2005-04-21T18:33:00

2005-04-21T22:39:42Z

so all the CTY ppl wanna go to the killers cancel the night of SAT IIs.... which is the weekend before finals. but i'm TOTALLY going to
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hottnessssss. basically. yeah they're cool. not my favorite but still awesome. hopefully i can also go up to Boston sometime and visit Andover(Susanna!), Lexington (Deb), Dartmouth (Kaili), and CHRISTINE!!!

modern_nature1 @ 2005-04-17T11:28:00

2005-04-17T15:31:00Z

omg... i'm freaking out right now. i have like the solo thingy in like T minus three hours. hahaha..... oh man. i have so much frickin work. and i've only written like four pages of my seven page Macbeth essay which is due TUESDAY. oy oyoyoyoyoyo. it's okay. i get through, if not completely in tatters. but i have instant coffee which is so icky but convenient and keeps me awake and buzzed and totally intellectually inept. but all's okay. i only need to thhhhiiink i'm doing work. eew i hate not having italics.

<3 to italics

modern_nature1 @ 2005-04-13T22:35:00

2005-04-14T02:39:17Z

hmm... very hectic week yet again. but i loveeee not have sports. yum yum. not much of an athlete to begin with. but i guess fencing is the exception and while you compete it's actually pretty strenuous. but now that i've stopped practicing my thighs are not huge nor is my hand muscle. like those are the most flattering parts of the body to tone.... harumph.

so i got rejected from all-state!!! i guess it was cuz i was sick. but that still isn't any excuse. i guess i can try again next year but it's just i guess an eye-opening experience since i really overlooked the talent of singers whereas i just thought it was violinists that i needed to worry about. now it's both. oy veeyyy. god help me. speaking of singing, i have a duet thing with ashley on sunday's concert. which will suck cuz i thought it was for the spring concert but it's also for the trinity-pawling one. efff.... so basically i made a fool of myself today and felt really bad. but i dunno why they gave me the bottom part b/c they know that i can only sing the higher parts b/c i stinxors at music. and i should study. bye

sun sun sun

2005-04-10T16:04:48Z

i am sooo bored. i saw the notebook last night with talia which was fun. reminiscing about our bestfriendness in middle school and being so completely drained from the nervousness/disaster in the morning. oh maaan. i don't think i've sat down watched a cheesy movie and vegged with someone in so long. oh poo. i might even go out for a jog if i feel up to it it's so nice out.

tooodles

cloudy outside :(

2005-04-07T22:25:31Z

arrgh. bad day. didn't have enough sleep. etc. etc. plus i have that macbeth test tomorrow. i suck at old english. i feel like a dimwit at that and chem. plus i think i'm getting sick. maybe i'm just paranoid. but i feel it in my throat. Don't you guys feel a little tickle in your throat before you get sick? That's what i'm feeling. Or maybe i'm imagining it since the audition is on saturday. at least if i don't get... i can blame it on the throat problem. obviously i have a very slim chance of making it. but whatevvvs. GOOD LUCK NUBBLE you're like the bombster at everything. just believe in yerself! go go go! aren't i the bestest cheerleader? i am.

hmm.... so emily and chris wanna do an assembly on sweatshops which i tried to dissuade them from doing... but if they're so bent on it and they are truly passionate, i don't want to put a damper on their hopes because at least they care about sssomething (i hate not having italics). so boohoo on sweatshops and ra ra ra corporate responsibility. hmm... i find myself not fully backing this.

uggh pooped

2005-04-06T22:17:01Z

hmm.... today was cool. i was feeling really energetic all day and then basically crashed towards CP but getting the gloria solo kinda kicked up my spirits even though i got the lower part. low parts=stink. but otherwise, it was a pretty good day cept macbeth movie (the goriest movie ever). one vocab quiz. chorus. and of course the end of the day ritual, going to the caf and talking to keith and company. i have a violin lesson. ugh. i can't believe phil is going to weezer and lani went to jem. (arrr)

i can't believe it. but i'm listening to judas priest or something. eeeeeew=radio=suxors

yeaaah... student government meeting today. vote (catherine) chong for student council.

snowing

2005-03-23T20:25:01Z

it's snowing outside. huge little flakes if that makes sense. anyways, i stayed up watching videos with Mom again. Rode around in the new car. Ran some errands and went to Fort Lee and Pal Park. Then hit up borders and got wuthering heights and got Dad new shoes. Basically, the most eventful day of my life.

today... got up at like 11 and cleaned till two. now my room looks alright. I re-mounted all the pictures. I was debating whether to put the Shadow Government poster on my wall beside my window but decided not to... since people would walk by and probably be afraid so that part of the wall is uncluttered and bare next to the david bowie picture that i got from the ny times mag a while back. hmm... i should do some reading or something since i've realized daytime tele stinks.

useless USELESS

2005-03-16T22:25:06Z

i feel so useless. no one is home. no one is online. tele hurts my brain. too lazy to read or to play violin. gaaaaaaaaah. my brain cells are imploding as i write.

hm. i need to do something. maybe i should like, do something completely rare, like riding my bike! that would be PIMP. i think i'll do that.

hm. kings of convenience IS SOOO GOOD. wow. i listened to "i'd rather dance with you" about 100000000000 times. and the same with the phantom of the opera soundtrack. i am such a sucker for showtunes lately.

kings of convenience

erlend oye: geeky weirdo. but really cool. he's got moves.
eirik glambek boe: WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOAH. amazing voice and hair.

i should stop wasting my time.

tired and it's spring break

2005-03-12T03:45:40Z

hello............... i haven't posted since the concert. but alas i played violin again, in front of the school. quite scarring, yes, but not as bad as i had imagined. mom says i should keep doing these sort of things to get me immuned to the nervousness and i guess it's working. yeah....

belle and sebastian is sooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo good. and the flaming lips, might i add. but hhhhhhhhhhhmmmmm.... can this entry get anymore random. NO. so i'm not going to try to make any sense.

hmm.... feeling very sleep-deprived and bitter about chemistry. i sort of give up on getting into honors physics. alack. hmm.... in other news, i'm spending my weekend in new york.

day 1: violin lesson and loafing around. then favorite authentic japanese food at ISE and try to understand their broken english and fail miserably thus stumbling upon some delicious i-don't-want-to-know-what's-in-that food.
day 2: avenue q in the afternoon. the producers in the evening. a night of raunchy broadway. woot. oh the awkwardness between mother and i. oh the memories.
day 3: some indie film with mother (hitting up the film forum and west houston street). shopping. dim sum. and then opera. lalalalaaaa

wow. the flaming lips. i didn't realize how good they were. hmm.... i should probably practice some fiddle.... i actually have motivation to practice now and finish that GODDAMN IMMIGRANT BOOK I'VE BEEN READING FOR ABOUT TWO MONTHS. oy vey......... i want to move onto the brothers karamazov that kikkers loves so dearly. but that gonna have to wait since i have not a morsel of work ethic left in my body. oy oy oyoyoyoy.... holla. i need sleep

leaving with some lyrics from the song "sunship balloons" by the flaming lips from the album ego tripping at the gates of hell. that's the awesomest title everrrrr.

Now listen
I don't know the dimensions of outer space
But if our ability to feel love turns out to be just a comsic accident
I'd like to think this means that the universe is on our side

I don't know how far a man can go till he finds a way
Oh, that's you and me
Let's do it once, let's do it twice
Let's do it all night until the sunrise
Comes too soon in our sunship balloons

I don't care, cos we're gonna find a way to fly to the sun
Oh, it's you and me
Let's do it once, let's do it twice
Let's do it all night until the sunrise

Let's do it once, let's do it twice
Let's do it all night until the sunrise
Comes too soon in our sunship balloons

Let's do it once, let's do it twice
Let's do it all night

modern_nature1 @ 2005-02-27T18:08:00

2005-02-27T23:08:09Z

hmm... just got back from the YO concert. the puccini was TRES AMAZING. the quintets rocked. especially that oboeist (yumm) and CAROLINE KWON. yeah... now i have a buttload of work to do. toooodles

modern_nature1 @ 2005-02-27T12:18:00

2005-02-27T17:20:47Z

look at me i have an lj.... pretty boring b/c i am no techie. hmm... well i fenced this morning.... and now i'm doing a lab. yeah... did i tell you i wish i could play the cello... speaking of which, i should practice. aaaaahk